Acceptance

Credit: Black Apple via Design is Mine

Feeling the need to let things go. Not just physical objects either. What I’m talking about mostly is goals & dreams & things that I’ve been holding onto & not doing anything with. A big step for me was finally realizing & admitting that I didn’t want an Etsy shop. When I decided to let that go, not only did I feel an immediate sense of relief & like a weight had been lifted, but also a shift in my thinking. By releasing that goal, I had made room for new ideas & dreams to take its place & that was a good thing. I felt an initial surge of enthusiasm & new found hope but now that has faded. I know that life is cyclical; that there will be ups & downs, stagnation & growth. But right now, I’ve felt like I’ve been in a rut for a majority of this year & that’s disappointing, frustrating & upsetting.

I’ve always had a problem with managing my expectations & learning to listen to what my heart tells me. I have many intentions & desires but none that have made me feel truly passionate or as if there was no doubt in my mind that this is what I’m “supposed” to be doing. I love making handmade “stationary” but I should have listened to that tiny but persistent voice of doubt (and I’m not describing fear of failure or procrastination) that was there all along. Because then I wouldn’t have made myself almost miserable with trying to achieve something I didn’t even want in the first place. Once I declared that I wanted to make it a business, I stopped enjoying it & that’s a BAD sign.  Now, I’ve given myself permission to just let that be a hobby & it feels right.

What I’m saying is that instead of feeling guilty or ashamed or mad even, I’m just going to release all of those tired, old goals that I think I should want & think I should do. I’m going to turn inward & listen to what my heart says, how my body responds & reacts to things. I’m ready for change & I know its coming, but I’m not forcing it. I'm just accepting that this is exactly where I'm supposed to be right now. 

Tell me dear friends, how do you deal with ruts, stagnation & feeling lost? Your tips would be greatly appreciated & are much needed.